The REAL Week 17: Springback

Yeah, so she rejected...said she was planning to go with someone else. Oh well.

It seems like I always write better when I'm like this. So, time for hours of writing tonight! Yay!

Class was pretty boring today. Like, all of them.

Rented my tux for Mistletoe Ball today. Black jacket with white shirt, black slacks, a kiwi vest, and a kiwi long tie. Oh man I'm gonna be sexy.

And with that, *POOF* I'm gone!

Intermission, Fin: The Invitation

Tomorrow I ask Lydia. It's kinda pathetic that I'm worrying about it so much right now...

I mean, is this really natural to worry so much? I mean, I've asked girls out on dates before, but this is unbelievable. I guess I just want to make sure nothing goes wrong.

My mom is getting pretty peeved that I'm having fun? That's a little strange. She just came in my room and said that my interests are an inconvenience to the family. Weird.

Give me your prayers, people (that are or aren't reading this!)

And with that, *POOF* I'm gone!

Intermission, Day 2: Rebuilding

It's funny how you find you enjoy your life when you're happy to be alive.

Seriously, I've found, in the last couple of days, I'm extremely happy. I don't know why, but I am. Maybe it's the promise of good things to come. Maybe it's the fact that I finally got done with the script for my next school project. Or maybe it's because I've been thinking about Lydia. Like, a lot. Yep, that's probably it.

So, update on the epic (senior project). I've decided to name it "Thirteen," at least temporarily, and I'm already about a fourth done with it. It's coming together very well, if I may say so.

So, if anyone has any suggestions, I'd like to ask you a question: how is a guy supposed to ask a girl out on a date?

And with that, *POOF* I'm gone!

Intermission, Day 1: Hope

Hey again. I thought I would go through all my older posts, and see how I've changed so far.

Holy crap. I think I either have major mood swings or I'm just always looking down on myself. Or I'm just always overzealous. Hmph.

So, I was reading what I had said about Lydia from so long ago. I guess nothing's really changed (except for the interest meter staying at 7, not 2). She's still staring at me interestedly, and I haven't really been trying to return the favor. I'm going to start that as soon as possible. And, I'm gonna start reading the book again. It seems to have worked before, so maybe it'll work again. And I'll actually make sure she knows it's a date. lol.

But, you know, I'll just have to be positive about it. Wait...I have Allie's number...maybe I can ask her something about her. Yeah, that'll work.

Please give me your prayers that I can stay strong and do this.

And with that, *POOF* I'm gone!

Week 17: Epic Movies and the Like

So, I watched Avatar for like the billionth time tonight...and it's still epic. I have to say, it was definitely the movie of the century.

Umm, the reason I'm updating so early in the week is because today was officially the last day of school this week. Yay. So, technically, I just finished out week 17 in hel--I mean, school. :D

I've started to notice that the perfect moments for me to ask Lydia to the dance are those moments when I finally get her alone, and then someone comes around and messes everything up or we suddenly leave (to the next class). Yeah. This sucks. But I've decided that I will ask her next week. No matter what.

And with that, *POOF* I'm gone!

Week 16: Putting My Best Foot Forward

Has anyone ever seen someone who truly tried to just blend into the background, but they end up being the most amazing person around?

I think I have in the last week. The girl I was talking about from so long ago, Lydia, if you remember her. I've just now noticed that she's very quiet all the time (because I almost never noticed her before). She's always listening to Allie talk about her boyfriend (which isn't me, remember), and just acts excited for her, but never says anything about any interests of her own. She always walks through the halls with those who either never talk or just talk to her about their interests. I mean, the only thing I know she's interested in (in the half-year at the same table during lunch) is Harry Potter. I mean, there's really nothing else she lets on.

And, apparently, she either is waiting for one specific guy, or she's just passed over when guys are looking for a girlfriend. So, my two best friends (without me telling them anything) suggests that I ask her to "Mistletoe Ball," our Christmas dance. I'm hoping to be able to put my best foot forward, and either

1. Catch her eye
2. Confirm my suspicion, or
3. Learn that she's truly uninterested in herself (which would only make me more obligated to take her.)

Well, if you go by what I have so far. 

And, by the way, she keeps stealing glances when she thinks I'm not looking. When I eat lunch, she's staring past one of my friends and toward me, and as soon as I look up or toward her, she snaps either down to her food or over to Allie...

And with that, *POOF* I'm gone!

Week 15: Emptiness

Sorry I haven't updated in a while...I've just been kinda under the weather and, well, to be honest, I haven't been the best person. I allowed an old addiction to resurface, but I'm fine now.

So, Allie actually didn't have any type of interest in me, did not want to go for coffee, and was far more immature than I had ever imagined...and now I'm glad nothing ever happened. I don't think I could stand anyone so immature.

Everyone's trying to get me to go to the next dance, but I never go to a dance unless I have a date...I don't know if I'll have a date by then or not, soo...

And with that, *POOF*! I'm gone