Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Lost in the Woods: Almost There

I have just realized that I love my best female friend. And the last time I'll ever see her is in two days.

I've realized a lot in these last few days before my voyage to Minnesota. My best friend will be distraught. Or, well, almost all my friends will. I'm all they have, and I'm leaving. Such a selfish act.

I...I don't think I can talk too much--I don't want to start crying. I've been good so far. I haven't let a single tear fall yet.

I know it seems inhuman, but I know I can't cry. If I ever start, I'll never stop. I need to stay strong, and show them all that even in this things won't change. I have to stay strong.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Lost in the Woods: The Light

Yesterday was my last day of school...

Graduation is on the 19th...a week from yesterday. The last time I'll see most of my friends...ever. Though, I have been expecting this, so the pain isn't so bad.

HOWEVER, I've just learned that my Minecraft Community called "Peacecraft" is shutting down on the same day. This is a much harder blow, as I will not be able to get on the server that day. I would have been able to get back on on the 20th. I can't even say goodbye to them--they were much closer friends than most I had in my area, and I would be able to keep in touch with them for a long time afterwards. It just hurts me to see them go, too.

But, the light has shone at the end of the tunnel, for there is a way that most of my close ring of friends can stay together--they are willing to give me enough money to set up a Minecraft server of my own, and, eventually, we'll have a community just as large as that of Peacecraft. I just hope things go well.

Still...the light at the end of the tunnel is coming into view. And hopefully things will change for the better. No matter what, things will change.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Lost in the Woods: Closing in

I know I haven't posted in a while. Right after Christmas, we had an especially large workload in all my classes, and it hasn't slowed down until now.

This isn't a normal post, like any would expect...the next few will be reflecting on my life up to this point, and what I've missed in all these years.

Last night, I had four of my closest friends over, and we had what TJ, the largest, called a "Man Night," but in all reality, it was just a game night. It was really great that I finally got to have him over--I have known him for four years, and this is the first time he's stayed over at my house. And he's one of those guys that you just can't help but laugh almost any time he opens his mouth. The rest are kinda normal, so there is nothing different there.

But, what's really sad is that this is one of the last times I'm going to see any of them. You see, I'm leaving Tennessee on May 20, the day after my graduation, to go to Minnesota. I have an orientation for the University of Minnesota in early June, and I can't miss it. So, I'm leaving all my friends for that. I can't really complain too much, though. It's necessary for my future, and at least they understand that.

And, now that the school year is (almost) officially over because we just finished Senior Projects, everyone's getting ready to say their goodbyes. A few of my best female friends from this year have been telling me how they had wished I had asked them out--for instance, Merry just sent me a text saying that if I had just waited until this year, we would be dating right now. She wasn't ready for anything like that until this year. I was two months off.

Not to mention the fact that everyone seems to notice me once I say I'm leaving. Auggh. If only I could have known I had that many friends/acquaintances. Maybe I wouldn't have been in the same situation I was for most of this year.

And with that, *POOF* I'm gone.